God Isn’t Ready

Mom, am I going to die? Not for a long, long time. Like, when I’m 5o? No, much older than that. Like, when you are older than Grandma Penny. Oh! That’s old! Will I go to Heaven? Yes, you will. Will I see my Daddy there? I am sure of that. Yes. Ok. But, Ashton. … [Read more…]

I Wait Quietly

I’ve never waited quietly for anything. I’ve certainly never waited for (or ever thought about) good or bad white blood cells. Or bone marrow. Or Stem cells. I’ve never waited. I just plowed forward or I stopped trying altogether.  Now, neither is an option. Ashton is being changed, as I am. Difference is, he is learning as … [Read more…]

A Hundred Objects Close By

I know a cure for sadness: Let your hands touch something that makes your eyes smile. I bet there are a hundred items close by that can do that. Look at beauty’s gift to us– her power is so great she enlivens the earth, the sky, our soul. Love Poems From God: Twelve Sacred Voices … [Read more…]

A Thousand Days

“Life is sometimes really hard, at least for me, it is.” ~Ashton Carley-Trent Me: Sweetie, do you say that because of being in the hospital for so long? Ashton: Yeah! We’ve been here, like, a thousand days. A few minutes later we took the wagon and bunny to put our clothes in the washer and … [Read more…]


I am absolutely astounded by the donations made today. I am astounded by how many people shared our post to raise money for Ashton and the people who reached out to their own circle of friends to help him. At the beginning of the biggest tragedy, I have truly seen humanity and God working.  Thank … [Read more…]

Quick inspirational quote

“God didn’t promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, nor sunshine without rain, but He did promise strength for the day and light for the way.” -Nishan Panwar

Good News

This morning we found out that Ashton does not have cancerous cells in his spine! This is the greatest news! Also, he is already responding to the chemo based on his counts. It was not easy to give his first treatment yesterday as they utilized the port for the first time. He is really sick … [Read more…]

Pediatric Rapid Response To Room 420

Ashton came through with his port implant, spinal and first injection yesterday very well…until…he woke from anesthesia   in a bad way. They called me in to recovery  and he was beside himself. He was, understandably, on oxygen and began to calm down slowly while he rested on me. When they wheeled us back upstairs, I … [Read more…]