The F Word

Here I am staring, at your perfection in my arms; so beautiful. The sky is getting bright, the stars are burnin’ out. Somebody slow it down. This is way too hard, because I know when the sun comes up I will leave. This is my last glance that will soon be memories. And when the daylight … [Read more…]

The Poplar Street Boys

For about ten days now (I really don’t count those anymore), a small band of probably-someday-wayward boys show up on the edge of my lawn. Initially, they just wanted to play with Ashton even though they could have no idea how old he was. They, these boys range from seven to 13 so they didn’t … [Read more…]

A Song From Childhood

The word Seminole is a corruption of cimarrón, a Spanish term for “runaway” or “wild one”. Who knew they originated from Florida?   Ever since the days of old, Men would search for wealth untold. They’d dig for silver and for gold, And leave the empty holes. And way down south in the Everglades, Where … [Read more…]

The Birds Of Doom

Back in the day. Back in the 505, when we were up all night doing what we shouldn’t be doing, we heard them. The sweet, darling chirps of birds we didn’t even care the names of. We just knew we had not slept and the sun was coming up. I have been up before the … [Read more…]

Up All Night: It’s Just Practice

I am very grateful that my big brother is such a great editor. We, my sister, brother and I, plan to create a book for Ashton out of this blog. I seem to be losing my punctuation skills. In my defense, I write this with little sleep. I have been awake most of this night. … [Read more…]


It seems like we just got home and now are packing to back to the hospital. There are a few things I despise and most have to do with clothing. (washing, drying, packing, ESPESCIALLY unpacking, buying, fitting, shopping for.) It is 245pm and I got word that Ashton has his bone marrow aspiration #2 tomorrow. … [Read more…]


BELLA! Ashton’s second play date ever in life occurred yesterday. My little brother has a friend with a daughter almost exactly Ashton’s age and this is huge because he needs to be kid. The little girl is very mature for her age, so they were a good match.   Not that he can’t be demanding, but … [Read more…]

Go Tell Your Mommy

Great day yesterday. We were outside most of the day complete with planting seeds and a wagon ride. Ashton was complaining a bit but you get accustomed to that because nothing feels right to a child with Leukemia. And after all this time, a mere 37 days, I do not know if Cancer or Leukemia … [Read more…]

Exploded Rice-A-Roni

This kid would eat an armadillo if we were in Texas. Straight off the roadside. My mom bought these little Rice-A Roni microwave things in lieu  of Armadillo and I swear I follow the instructions. yet they explode every single time. He eats every 20 minutes is up to a whopping 43,23 lbs. My microwave … [Read more…]