But you did choose to log on.
It is said, if you lose a parent you have a collection of memories to draw from. Assuming that parent lived in to old age, it is the natural course of things, even if it was tragic. They lived a long fulfilling life, I hope, I hope.
For a child, one is left with all the unanswered. What would he or she have looked like? What would they have become?
I have a long list of questions:
Would you have been an addict?
A firefighter?
A nurse?
PTSD?
A baseball star?
Would you have picked up heavy things for me?
A country and western singer?
Married a blonde?
Ditch school?
Join the Navy?
How tall would you have been?
I stayed up all night. it is coming out of me.
I love you, my boy.
love, mommy