I have maintained a strong sense that a reliance on Science will see us through this. ( Science even rhymes with reliance) Who can argue with THAT?
I have flirted with both religion and spirituality in the last decade. Yes, I believe them to be different. Then, I found myself in a situation where religion was sort of crammed down my throat and I didn’t have a voice because mine didn’t matter. In effect, someone who was trying to turn me on to God, basically helped me run away, and fast.
People have to understand that I didn’t grow up with faith. So, to grasp it and go with it? Even with many reasons I could give God credit, I tend to go with the coincidence theory.
I understand that people find a lot of comfort and strength in their beliefs. I WANT that. I do not, however, know how to download faith. I WANT to.
It occurred to me yesterday that both science and spirituality could be more effective by working in tandem. Also, someone suggested that I go ahead and pray, even if I am uncertain. So, yesterday I prayed.
I’m a person who loves ritual, so the faith I did adopt many years ago suits me. I adore the Rosary, I adore Mary. And Mary Magdalene! (my confirmation name)
I got slammed for identifying with these women and also for identifying with the Saints. I was told there is only ONE way to God. And I was told this many times over. SO, I turned on everything because it was so confusing, and incorrect.
Here we are. It’s not a great time to be in the middle of a struggle with God. So, I am abandoning the struggle and I’m just going to pray anyway.
Today I am praying for the obvious: a committed donor. Also, whether it be coincidence or the result of someone’s prayer, Ashton’s ANC went from zero to 50 overnight and he doesn’t need platelets today (so far). So, it looks like today is the day, though it has not been confirmed…HOME!
Ashton goes, “see ya later, hospital. See ya on the next round.”